What the hell am I doing?

Never did I think that blogging is something I would do. But in each of our lives comes a time when we have to do something new, and unexpected.
Seattle is amazing this time of year, you never know what you are going to get. Luckily; Shoreline is beautiful this time of year, sunny yet crisp and cool. The leaves are changing the pumpkins are showing up everywhere.
I have found 2 similiar themes in my own life right now: things are changing and my body looks like a pumpkin....I have always been driven, driven to succeed, work hard, be in control.
As I get closer to 40 I have these changing colors growing inside me but Im not sure what to do with them. Thinking of changing careers in mid stream makes no sense at all, but feel like a huge weight is lifted when I move that way. Hopefully I can use this forum to help figure out; "What the Hell Im doing?