First day of the rest of my life????

I finished the final edit on my (hopefully) first book. What is going to become of this new venture?? Will anything come of it? I should spend time being amazed at the fact that I was able to accomplish it. I feel truley blessed that a agency has picked me up.
Im scared as well, I feel self doubt that I can actually do this. I am person who has a GED but nothing more. I have done well in my life through hard work and effort. I am ready for a change. Id like to inspre my kids to know that they can accomplish anything they put their minds to.
I am learning to listen more than I was listened to. That is a struggle, I want to help others but I seem over step sometimes. Wanting more for them then they want for themselves. Ok, Im a pusher, push them, push myself, push, push , push.

What the hell am I doing?

Never did I think that blogging is something I would do. But in each of our lives comes a time when we have to do something new, and unexpected.
Seattle is amazing this time of year, you never know what you are going to get. Luckily; Shoreline is beautiful this time of year, sunny yet crisp and cool. The leaves are changing the pumpkins are showing up everywhere.
I have found 2 similiar themes in my own life right now: things are changing and my body looks like a pumpkin....I have always been driven, driven to succeed, work hard, be in control.
As I get closer to 40 I have these changing colors growing inside me but Im not sure what to do with them. Thinking of changing careers in mid stream makes no sense at all, but feel like a huge weight is lifted when I move that way. Hopefully I can use this forum to help figure out; "What the Hell Im doing?